Runaway Bride Heroes

Current thoughts as I type this post is F U MF, I don't need you in my life to enjoy family time, I don't need you to have fun, I don't need you to be happy.  It is actually quite the opposite.  I needed to get rid of you in order to be all of those things.

I just had an amazing weekend. Friday, I decided to get my hair done as well as get a mani/pedi with a friend.  Then after that, we went out together as a family for some amazing sushi. It was so nice to be with them. That alone made me so giddy. I haven't felt that way in a long time. We were laughing so much we were crying throughout the dinner. My family is amazing!  Saturday, I hung out with my friends and we did a little Christmas shopping.  It was another extremely enjoyable day.  In the evening, my sister and I went to buy a Christmas tree and decorations. After going to a brunch in honor of our friend's birthday today, we came home to put up the tree and decorate it.  I am blessed with an amazing family and amazing friends and this weekend was spent with a bunch of them.  They remind me of how happy life can be without the burden of a douche bag on your shoulders.

Right from the beginning it was a stifling life.  Right from the beginning it was filled with lies. I still reprimand myself for not leaving his ass and calling off the wedding the first time I realized he lied to me unnecessarily.  Or leaving him in AC to find his own way home the second time I caught him in a major lie.  The second major lie was very hurtful both to my pride and to my heart.  His coworker's wedding was the week or month before. He swore to me that he was invited alone and that no one was bringing their wives or fiancées.  I kept pushing because there's no way! A wedding is not an office holiday party. It is rude and completely in poor taste to invite people without significant others.  But he swore to me that was the case and blamed it on the couple's culture and called the entire group of people rude in general.  Nice, right?  Then, we go to AC with his coworkers and their significant others and they all tell me that they thought I was a phantom.  When I asked why? They said because I'm never available to go out with them. I'm always too busy at work or not feeling well when they get together (I was unemployed and hadn't gotten sick in years).  I was even too busy to go to the wedding that they all expected me to attend.  It was the first time I actually felt blood rush to my head and feel the physical signs of rising blood pressure.  I was so angry that I don't remember much of what happened next. I know I was chased by him to come back and not leave. I know I threatened to leave him and was very willing to do it but he professed his so called love.  But I also know that I kept thinking about all the deposits and payments that I had made toward the wedding and how much money I'd lose.

I have so much respect for runaway brides or brides that walk away at the alter or even the brides that just call it off.  You are my heroes!  If I had just listened to the signs instead of thinking that it can get better once we're married. I wouldn't be where I am today.  I would have lost the deposits but I would have saved the money that will be spent on the divorce.  I stand and applaud every runaway bride that ever lived and every future bride to be who recognizes the signs and walks out before it becomes serious.